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Beast Tamer Who Got Kicked Out From the Hero’s Party Chapter 117

CHAPTER 117: KANADE’S THOUGHTS *2*

Rein was asleep in his bed.

At times, he would look as if he was in pain.

「Nyah…….. Rein…….」

As I sat in the chair next to the bed, I gently reached out and wiped Rein’s sweat away.

That’s the least I could do here.

I’m pathetic…… for only being able to do something like that.

「I know that Rein would most probably say not to worry about him, but…… That’s impossible. Just impossible. Because it’s all my fault. Rein, you did your very best for my sake, and now I can’t even do anything for you in return……」

All of a sudden, my Mom showed up and said that she was going to take me back home with her.

So a lot of things happened as a result of that and we had to fight.

Thanks to Rein, we managed to get my Mom to approve of me living on my own, but……

But now Rein was suffering the repercussions of his own recklessness that allowed us to achieve victory.

It’s all my fault.

I feel so sorry for allowing this to happen.

I’d like to apologize to you, if only to say that I’m sorry for everything.

And I just wanted to say thank you so much, for everything.

That is why I offered to take care of Rein while he was still unconscious.

「Nyaahh…… Rein? Are you in pain?　Are you okay?」

I called out to him, but there was no response from him at all.

He would just occasionally groan in pain.

I mean, of course he would……

I have never heard of such a reckless thing as casting multiple layers of ability-enhancing magic on yourself in rapid succession……

If it’s done poorly, it’s possible that your body might have broken down from the strain.

But the fact that you were willing to go so far and do something so reckless for someone like me…….

「No, no, no……」

There was a knock on the door with a loud bang right now.

The door to the room opened and Tanya appeared in the doorway.

「How’s Rein doing?」

「He’s still not waking up.」

「…… I see.」

Tanya lined up next to me and looked at Rein’s face.

Tania had a look on her face that said, “Well, it can’t be helped”.

「Talk about one hell of a troublesome Master…… Making us worry like that because of his own reckless behavior.」

「Yeah, I guess that’s true……」

「Don’t worry too much about him, Kanade.」

「…… What?」

「Knowing you, you think it’s your fault or something like that, right?」

「Nyauh…… But, but it’s true! It’s all my fault and……!」

「No, no it is not.」

「Unyauhn!?」

In the next moment, I could feel Tanya flicking my forehead with her finger.

「Ouch……!! W-What are you doing……!?」

Tanya laughed as she gave me a resentful look.

「Don’t waste your time thinking about such trivial things.」

「T-Trivial things……?」

「It’s not Kanade’s fault. Of course it’s not Rein’s fault, either. It’s no one’s fault.」

「But since I was the cause of all this……」

「You’re going to blame yourself for being like that? Look at you, looking so gloomy…… Do you want Rein to witness you looking like that first thing when he wakes up?」

「Ngh.」

「Umm, well, how should I say this…… You really look best when you are smiling all the time, so go ahead and laugh your brains out like you always do.」

Tanya said, sounding vaguely embarrassed.

I guess she was trying to encourage me in her own unique way.

It was something extremely clumsy, but…… It was also something that made me feel a little bit better.

「…… Thanks a lot, Tanya.」

「I-It’s not that big of a deal. It’s just that…… If you are not acting like your usual self, I’m starting to feel depressed as well……」

「Nyaaahhh…… Tanya, you are such an adorable little tsundere, you!」

「W-What!? N-No, I’m not!」
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「Nyafuh~. Sure you are not~.」

「W-Well then, I’m going to leave the rest to you!」

After saying that in a flustered tone, Tanya left the room.

As if it was nothing more but a lie, the gloomy mood from earlier was completely gone.

That’s right.

I can’t let Rein see how depressed I am.

If I did that, I would put more and more of a burden on Rein.

I should be smiling brightly and cheerfully!

「But still, I cannot really help it but to worry……」

It had been two days since we had fought against my Mom.

During that time, Rein had been sleeping all the time and not waking up at all.

Sora and Luna had cast a recovery spell on him and Mom also examined him, so there was really nothing that we needed to worry about all that much, but……

I hope that Rein is going to start feeling better soon.

I’d love for him to pat me on the head.

I want him to hold my hand.

I want him to smile at me.

「…… Rein……」

Gently, I took Rein’s hand in mine.

But it’s not enough……

I gently rested my forehead against Rein’s sleeping chest.

「Nyah.」

My heart was pounding as I did that……

I then thought back to what Rein said earlier.

That he wanted to be with me.

That’s why he opposed my Mom to such an extent.

Every time I would think back to that time, my heart would beat harder in my chest.

Not only that, a gentle warmth would spread through me……

I even felt a vague sense of satisfaction.

「Nnnhhh……. Rein.」

Naturally, I said the name of my significant other.

Then I stepped away for a moment and looked at Rein’s face.

Sweat was running down his face, so I gently wiped it off.

「…… Nyah.」

Why?

I was so nervous, my heart was pounding like crazy, and my chest felt painful, but at the same as fluffy as a cloud……

It was weird.

I have never felt like this before.

…… Maybe…… or maybe not……?

Is that what that feeling is?

Gently, I stroked my own chest.

I was so nervous that I thought that Rein was actually going to hear the sound of my beating heart.

This feeling, this thought……..

Maybe it’s love, right?

「…… NYAAAHHH!」

Instantly, I felt really embarrassed and my face got incredibly hot.

It’s like a vague fire has been lit right under the surface of my skin.

Maybe I was even turning bright red right now.

「Ugh, uwah…… UNYAAAH!!!」

I love Rein.

As a woman, I love Rein.

Finally, I was able to say it. should say.

Now I have become completely aware of that fact.

And I would never allow myself to think otherwise.

Because, you know, I can’t really be helped, right?

He was always so nice to me, smiling at me with so much warmth……

He worked so hard for my sake until he finally collapsed from exhaustion……

Anyone would be crazy if they did not end up liking someone who did so much for them. Yeah, that’s right.

So yeah, it’s perfectly normal for me to like Rein. It’s only natural.

Alright, it’s decided!

「…… I’m once again thinking about something that is really hard for me to understand……」

My head felt so messed up right now.

Have I gone crazy, by any chance……?

「This…… What am I going to do about this?」

Should I just go and tell Rein how I feel about him?

I then tried to imagine what that would be like……

「AWAWAWAWAH!?」

My tail ended up going completely stiff as a result.

I don’t think so! There’s no way I would ever be able to do that!

I’m too embarrassed to do anything about it!

「Haah…… for now…… Yeah, I guess things are fine the way they are…… E-Even if I were to say to him that I l-l-lo…… love him…… It would only cause trouble for Rein…… So for now…… I will keep those feelings inside of my heart……」.
　
Unyah…… And now what? Now I can’t even bring myself to look Rein straight in the face.

Because it’s so embarrassing.

「…… No! I cannot do that!」

I have got to take proper care of Rein!

Yeah, I have officially made up my mind!

「…… But then again, I guess that only for a little bit is fine.」

Once again, I put my forehead on Rein’s chest.

It’s as if I could feel Rein’s warmth, and my heart felt really fuzzy.

Ehehe……..I’m so happy……

「Rein, I love you……」

I murmured softly and stroked Rein’s cheek.