Fiancée of the Wizard Volume 8 Chapter 5 Part 5
Somebody who was more precious than anything or anybody else. Such a person was calling his name in tears. Although she had always complained that there were some things that must be put in words to convey to the other, Agedilus knew that there were things that need not be put in words to convey. Wasn’t this now?
Although Filmina did not say anything, he knew. Of course, he knew. Currently, definitely, Filmina was calling for him. While crying, she definitely was calling for him and yearning for him. Then, there is not a more worthy time to sacrifice his life than now.
Agedilus held his wand firmly once again. The magical sphere started gleaming with a morning glow colored light, and collided with the dark light that was flowing from Filmina. Then, the morning glow colored light slowly but surely started swallowing the dark light. Then, Agedilus’s magical power exploded through the magical sphere. The moment he thought it wiped out the dark light, a path was opened in front of Agedilus.
It was a path that Agedilus had made with his own magical power, by forcibly opening up the flow of the demon lord’s magical power. No, it was too much of a description to call it a path. The fact that the path was quite short did not comfort him. The path still had some magical presence left behind, which Agedilus’s magical power could not completely eliminate. It was incomparable to the animal road deep in a mountain. The description of “precarious” was not sufficient to show how dirty and difficult of a path it was.
Nonetheless, who cares. The person he most loves was waiting at the end of this path. This gave Agedilus more than enough reason to step forward.
Thus, Agedilus stepped forward without any hesitation. Having wiped out Filmina’s magical power with his own power, Agedilus was not given any more protection by the barrier by Filmina. Hence, every step closer to Filmina tore his body and magical filth almost dominated him. Yet, Agedilus continued onward.
Then, with his whole body in rags, Agedilus finally reached the place where his most loved one was. Filmina’s dark eyes did not see Agedilus. Without wiping the tears that continue to flow, Filmina was just standing there, letting the magical power flow out of herself. Reaching out his bloody hand, Agedilus touched her on the cheek.
For a moment, he regretted it. I might dirty her. But he dismissed the thought by thinking, Filmina would not care. Rather, surely, she would laugh wryly and say 「now is not the time to be saying such things」. Such an image of his wife popped in the back of his mind. Agedilus could not help but laugh. It was so out-of-place to imagine such things in this flow of filthy magical power. It was a smile that was calm, gentle; he adored it so much.
Then, the very next moment, his smile changed. He smiled so sexily and meaningfully that anybody would be captivated by it.
「Now, it is time to return my Filmina」
It was an absolute order that did not accept no as an answer.
Lowering his eyebrows a little, Agedilus continued.
「This time, it is my turn to welcome you home. Please come back home, my Filmina」
It was a plea from the bottom of his heart towards the person he loves.
Had she heard Agedilus’s voice. Filmina slowly blinked, and looked up at Agedilus. Once again, large teardrops spilt from her eyes. Wiping the warm tears with his fingertips, Agedilus embraced his beloved one in his arms. Then, Agedilus stole a deep kiss.
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——It was like a dream. I thought so without directing it to anybody. I could not see anything. I could not hear anything. In the darkness that did not even allow a single thread of light, I was sitting down alone. A darkness in which one loses the sense of direction. Was I opening my eyes or closing it? The darkness made even this ambiguous. Although I did not feel any passing of time in this darkness, I sensed that this darkness was gradually but certainly swallowing “me” up. But so what?
Somewhere far away, I felt like I was talking something to somebody although I was not controlling myself. At times, the things I said were somebody else’s lies, and at other times they were my honest feelings.
It was not that I felt suspicious about it, but at this point, I did not care. Let everything, everything be swallowed by this dream that is darker than a night of the new moon. I wanted to sink into this lightless darkness without interruption. I did not want to face reality anymore. I want to be put into an eternal sleep while dreaming of going somewhere where I won’t be reached. Such thoughts filled my heart.
Because why not? My sunrise would not come anymore.
Then, I shall sleep in this darkness. I don’t mind if I do not wake up ever again. Perhaps I can see that man again in a dream. If I can sleep with such hope, surely being swallowed by darkness would not be that bad.
While I contemplated this, I felt that the darkness had become even more darker.
—Edi
—Edi
—Edi
No matter how many times I called him, I could not actually mouth those words. My voice would not reach that man. It was sad. Heart-wrenching. Lonely. Painful. And most importantly, unbearably hateful. Irrationally, I blamed: why don’t you answer me?
I could not touch his beautiful jet-black hair anymore. His morning glow colored eyes will never see me. I could not accept such a reality. How mean. Mean. Mean. I blamed the man over and over again. Even though my voice would never reach him again. Even though this situation was not because of the man.
It was my fault. I had been careless, and the man protected me. It was my fault. My fault. My fault. I distinctly felt my words razing myself.
While sitting down, I looked down at my hands. I could almost feel the vivid sensation again. The sticky red that was too bright that had dirtied my hands. Its lukewarm and sticky feeling. I once again saw the image of my paled white beauty in the back of my mind. His long thick eyebrows which eyes would never open again.
——Edi
What meaning was there in a world without you. I don’t need a world without you. I should destroy everything.
Even in the darkness, somehow I only saw myself with clarity. But at this point I did not care about it. Because I did not care. I blankly accepted the darkness wiping me out in black while it itself became darker.
—If I disappeared at this rate, would I be able to meet you again?
The moment I had questioned the man who was not here anymore.
「Why are you being so whiny? 」
「……What? 」
I could not help but let out an unintentionally stupid voice at the sudden voice. Although my voice could not make a noise previously, I took a moment to realize that I had clearly made vibrations in this darkness. When I opened my eyes that I didn’t know when I closed, as expected there still was a pitch-black darkness. But that was not all. I became lost for words at the person standing in front of me.
While I froze dumbfoundedly, 『she』 put her hands on her waist, and stood there. She was looking down at me while raising her eyebrows.
「It has been a while huh, 『me』. Were you well?……hm, such a question won’t be that appropriate, huh」
Black hair. Burnt brown eyes. A complete makeup that resembled a natural makeup. A complete recruit suit that was well worn. To this nostalgic sight, I did not know what words to say. Why you. Such questions filled my mind and stole all words from me.
「What an ugly face. Although the last time I saw you it was quite a thing, but isn’t your current face worse? 」
Saying this, 『she』 lowered her raised eyebrows and laughed teasingly. I could not shift my gaze from her smile. The question, who 『she』 is, would be an outdated one.
『She』 is me. It was me from the world of my 『past life』. It was me before I became who I am now.
「Hadn’t you melted within me? 」
The voice that I barely managed to speak in was quite unreliable. However, I do think it was an appropriate question. 『She』—-referring to 『me』 standing right in front of me. I had met 『her』 once before when I fell due to the evil blade of the young man, Celves.
At the time, we were in a perfectly opposite position. I hugged 『her』 while she, who was struggling under the curse, cried. Then, she was absorbed into me. Then, we finally had genuinely become one. Or I had supposed so. Yet, why?
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