Volume 8 Chapter 3 Part 2

Fiancée of the Wizard

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Translation by Goma
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「That was when my mother appeared. Not only did she help me from the priests. She gave me a name and a home. She went through the trouble to make this choker as a symbol that we were family」 

「……I see. That’s nice」 

Seemingly, Noct was happy that I did not disagree, but honestly agreed to what he had said. This was because he smiled bashfully. But suddenly, his face clouded. 

「But」 

「But? 」 

I urged Noct to continue what he had abruptly stopped saying. Noct cast his face downwards again. I could sense that his hands on his laps were clenched tightly, even though the table blocked the view. Closing his beastly ears, Noct drooped his face downwards. I could not decipher his expressions, but I did not need to. I did not think that he would have a bright face. 

「Yet, when the demon lord awakened, I was of no use. I could not hurt humans. I was helplessly afraid and afraid, even though she said I was useless」 

——-That should not be wrong. Rather, he should be praised for it. 

Instinctively, I thought. The reason why he feared hurting a human was because he had warm kindness within him. I thought that was very precious and honorable. But even if I thought so, it was useless. That was because that was common sense to just me, and not Noct. If he were to live as a demon, his kindness would instead suffocate him. 

On the day I first met Noct, he swore to the man. 「Until now, and from now onwards, I do not intend to hurt humans」. I wondered if Noct still remembered his words then.  

Without noticing me staring at himself silently, Noct continued on. It was as if he was reminding himself. He lifted his face up. 

「That is why, this time I really want to be useful for my mother. I must be useful」 

There was a clear resolution in the words Noct said to remind himself. However, was it only because of my selfish wishful thinking that I saw some indecisiveness in him?   

I did not know what the demon was intending to do. But, inferring from her behavior, no matter what, Noct would become my enemy in the future.

 

——No. 

 

To face Noct as an enemy. It was a fact that I should know by now. I would not be wrong to say that we were in such a hostile relationship already. However, I did not like it. Instead, I dreamed of something. I wished to be able to peacefully live with this kind boy again. Why did I care so much about him? I thought, perhaps I had been hypnotized by the demon when I was unaware. However, I did not truly think so. 

Hmm. I tilted my head inside my mind………then, I finally remembered. In the past, I could not help but think that Noct resembled the man very much. The young Agedilus that I knew ages ago, that is. I still thought that they had some resemblance. 

Like how he is very bad at making expressions, or his clumsy kindness. Although Noct is more honest than that man, frankly there isn’t much significant difference. Moreover, the way Noct blindly loves his own adoptive parent really parallels with the way the man loved my father-in-law. 

Surely, Noct love for the demon as his mother is real. He isn’t just hypnotized; he genuinely loves her. Nonetheless, did the demon give something in return that was worthy of his love? Such a question popped into my mind. 

Sure, she helped Noct from the priests. Sure, she gave him a name and a home. A choker that symbolized family? I understand, sure. But, after that? I wondered; what about the important part, what happened next? 

The demon called Noct 「adorable child」. Was there any warm love there? Would she properly hold his hand if Noct reached out to her? I wished so. All the more if the demon would a saviour to Noct. 

「Filmina?」 

「What is it?」 

「Why, do you have to cry?」 

It was, a voice that seemed perplexed from the bottom of the heart. I only realized that my cheeks were wet when I was asked about it. But noticing my tears did not mean the tears would stop flowing. Rather, hot things streamed my cheeks as if the dam it back had been broken. 

「Sorry. Hm, I wonder why」 

Although I should not be crying, the tears flowed without stopping. How arrogant of me. Why did I say, I wonder why? It was mere self-satisfaction. I was not the one that wanted to cry. I did not have the right to cry, since I had only listened. However, I could not help but cry. 

I had thought that I did not know where the boy’s heart was. Of course, I would not know. Why would a person who had been blessed in every aspect of one’s life like me understand his heart? I should not be able to know the state of this child’s heart. A child that was hurt and hurt and continued to be hurt, and lost his understanding of his own heart. 

—Nonetheless, still. 

「Still, I am happy that you remained alive, that I was able to meet you」 

Everything is your fault. Since I had hurled such mean words to him, I should not be saying this. Even so, I could not help but say so. 

The days I had lived together with him in the Lancent secondary estate was fun. I did not think that everything I had experienced about Noct was a lie. I did not want to think so. 

I was aware that I was interpreting everything in a way that I wanted. Be that as it may, I wanted to believe that those days were actually real. I could vividly imagine the man exasperatingly saying, how foolish of you. Ah indeed, at any rate I am a fool that does not learn. 

 At the back of my mind, I stuck my tongue out towards the man. Looking at me as troubled, Noct then muttered softly. 

「Even though I had kidnapped you, huh」 

「That is a separate matter」 

「Isn’t it all my fault? 」 

「No, it is not just yours. I am also to blame」 

「Wrong」 

「I am not wrong」 

Our conversation was almost like a joke. Surely, I was not the only one who thought so. Facing each other, we both naturally laughed softly. I should be hating this boy, but shamefully I could not do so no matter what.  

I should not have asked him about his past. For a while I thought so, but then I shook my head in the back of my mind. Surely, even if I had not asked him about his past, the result would have been the same. Even though the man was captured by the church and put into peril. What was I doing here?

 

—-Hey, Edi. I, want to meet you very much, now. 

 

I could not help but want to meet that man. I longed to meet him. I desired to touch him. I craved to hug him. Such thoughts filled my heart. As I had thought, I could not just wait. The man was placed into a situation in which he had to call me for help. All the more I wanted to save him with my own hands.  

I did not know whether or not Noct had noticed what I had been thinking in my heart. This was because suddenly, Noct wiped off his smile, and talked with an expressionless face. 

「It was not just a makeshift lie I told you while I was kidnapping you about the church forcing Agedilus to kill your stomach’s baby. When I went to confirm, the church already had such plans. Sooner or later, the plans would have been carried out. Although I have not confirmed this yet, by now the church should have started the search for you. As soon as they find you, they would make Agedilus perform an abortion on you」 

I had somewhat predicted what he said. However, the act of somebody else saying it out loud again solidified its factuality. That said, strangely I did not feel shocked. As I had expected. I plainly accepted it, and internalised it.

I did not know why, but I did not feel any anxiety or fear. This was because I could not imagine the sight of the man hurting this stomach’s baby. Rather, I could easily imagine him using magical attack spells towards high priests without any hesitation. Then he would step on the backs of the priests whom had fallen down. How strange it was. 

Well, whatever it was, if the church was acting as Noct was saying, I could only do one thing. I, must do. 

「Then no matter what, I must run away」 

Frankly, I wanted to go save the man. Nonetheless, it would defeat my purpose to do so if I attacked the church directly, and instead get caught. 

I must somehow think of a solution that could change this status quo. While I was thinking so, Noct crunched his eyebrows for some reason. He seemed to think for a while in such a state. Then he tilted his head. The eyes that resembled a yellow crystal peered through his messy ash-grey hair. I could not figure out his intentions within the eye’s complex glow.


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