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Chapter 65 Part 2 – A rose that blooms on a snowy day. An unattainable first love.

You are one hell of a whore for such a little child. The guy sneered at Rona.
Those words pierced her heart.
Rona turned pale and stood still as the man pushed her down.
His filthy fingers groped Rona like caterpillars.

The season was heading toward midwinter.

Rona didn’t have a bed at home and only had a long box covered with straw.
Even the straw hadn’t been changed for a long time and had an offensive smell.
The man was annoyed by it and ended up taking Rona’s first time on the cold floor.

Rona’s flower of chastity, which had not even grown into a bud, was forcefully broken.
It was violently pushed open and a scorching pain pierced through the top of her head.
Her naked back turned red from being rubbed on the hard floor, but she did not even notice it.
Rona hasn’t even had her first menstruation.

「It hurts!! It hurts!! Mother!! Help me!!」

Her acting immediately disappeared and she desperately asked her late mother for help.
She tried to close her knees, but the man beat her up several times in the face.
The violence was so merciless that she thought her head had been blown away.
A sharp metallic smell spread in the back of her nose.

Rona swallowed back her tears and blood from her nostrils when she was threatened with having to return the tip she received.
The words that she would not get a tip was more effective than the violence.
If she ran away, she would not be able to protect her younger brothers.
Rona gave a stiff smile and put her hands around the man’s back.

The man who devoured the young Rona quickly fulfilled his desire.
He looked down at her with a bored, contemptuous look on his face and left without even saying a word.

It was the most miserable first-time experience.
Humiliation, grief, and self-loathing made her heart feel like it’s about to break into pieces.

In exchange for a few copper coins, Rona lost her virginity.
She would no longer have the bashfulness of a little girl.
Rona looked up at the dirty ceiling and sobbed.
What could she be bashful about after experiencing such a horrible thing?

She absolutely did not want her younger brothers to see her do it, so she let them go out to buy bread.
When they returned, they saw Rona sitting there half naked with swollen cheeks and bloodstained clothes.
Even though they had no knowledge of what had happened, they understood, even as children, that their sister had sacrificed herself for them.

「…… Sister!!」

「Sister Rona ……!!」

They cried out in grief, threw away the bread in their hands, and rushed over to Rona.

The siblings hugged each other and cried.

「…… I’m okay, so don’t worry and quickly eat the bread. Before our father wakes up. This sister can handle this much.」

Rona patted the heads of her younger brothers as they continuously cried and said sorry to her. Then she intentionally urged them to eat while acting strong.

She was bluffing.
In fact, she wanted to cry and cling to someone.
The sound of the bright laughter of girls of the same age as her that can be heard from afar burnt her heart.
She bit her lip so hard it bled, wondering why she was the only one in this situation.
The memory of the sound of the piano from her childhood faded away.

Still, she thought she could endure anything for the sake of her younger brothers.

But the living hell was just beginning.
Human malice went beyond Rona’s imagination.

Rona was treated as an alternative to prostitutes. The men could treat her as they pleased for an unbelievably low price.
She was not treated like a person. She was treated as an object.
Unfamiliar men came over one by one.
Her father agreed again in exchange for a few bottles of cheap alcohol.
There was no room for Rona’s dignity.

She lost count of the number of men who had held her down.
The humiliation was long forgotten and only the pain tormented Rona.

Rona’s sad hope that she would get used to it after a few times was betrayed.
Rona’s body was too immature to accept a man.
She always thrashed about in extreme pain.
Although it was not visible from the outside, Rona’s insides were covered with wounds.

Rona’s beauty became her undoing.
If she had a mediocre appearance, those men would not have been attracted to her due to her age.

The men would feel displeased if she showed an expression of anguish.
So Rona had to keep putting on a fake smile.
The more she smiled, the more she hated herself.
She was given no time to recover. And as the torment continued, her wounds became more serious.

She couldn’t stop bleeding.
Her body constantly hurts no matter when she’s awake or asleep.
She wondered what would happen to her.
The word 「death」 began to flicker in Rona’s mind.

She wanted to escape, but her father told her that if she did, he would kill her younger brothers.
It was not a mere threat.
By this period of time, her father will suddenly have a violent outburst over a trivial matter.
At the slightest hint of resistance Rona showed toward selling her body, her father would mount her younger brothers and beat them until they faint. The injuries they suffered at that time worsened and Teddy could no longer walk normally.

Her father wasn’t the only one who was drunk and often made a mess.
So were the male guests.
An alcohol bottle was shoved into Rona just for fun and caused her to black out from the pain.
Seeing Rona’s reaction of turning incontinent with the whites of her eyes visible, the men mocked her as a lascivious slut.

After the men who had done as they pleased left, Rona cleaned up after their vomit and her own mess while still in great pain. She wondered if the teaching that God created humans was true. She thought that it would make more sense if humans were created by the devil. She couldn’t even cry anymore no matter how bad it got. Her heart was dying.

Pain, cold, hunger.
The obscene acts.
Her flattering behavior in order to please the men.
Just the repetition of this day after day.
Can this be called living as a human being?
Wouldn’t the beasts of the wild be nobler?

She fell asleep while trembling, then when she opened her eyelids due to a sound, she saw her mother’s back.
Her mother turned around and gently smiled at Rona.

‘Wait for a little bit more okay, the meal will be ready soon.’

Hearing that nostalgic voice, Rona couldn’t resist jumping up and down.
Her mother didn’t die.

「Mother, listen!! I had scary dreams for a long time!!」

When she returned to being a spoiled girl and hugged her mother’s back, she woke up.
Coldness, hunger, and pain rushed over her.
It was a dream.
The rats ran away after being startled by the signs of Rona’s waking up.
The sound had been caused by those rats.
In reality, there was only the daily routine with no salvation.
The cruelty of the dream stood out even more than the happiness of the dream.

「…… Aa ……!! ……Uuuhh ……!! …… Uahhh ……!!」

The tears that she thought had dried up overflowed.
Rona curled herself up, clutched her knees, and cried with a stifled voice.

She no longer succeeded in distracting her father’s attention and obtaining tips from her male clients.
Because her father had become slightly suspicious of the situation and began to keep a watchful eye on her.
And so, even though Rona sacrificed both her body and mind, she was left with nothing.