Translator: DarkHeartedAlchemist Editor: Weasalopes
【Interlude 2: Someone’s Darkness】
I am the prisoner of darkness.
Of that dark day, of that dark time.
And of that dark person.
No day passes by when I’m not dreaming about that time. Like a sound echoing endlessly in my head, it doesn’t let me forget about it.
My prayers and wishes are easily turned to curses and despair.
I have no choice but to keep on living the days when I continue to walk forward without being able to see the path that has been laid in front of me.
Today was the first time in forever when I felt my heart pounding.
Perhaps now, I’ll be able to see his dream without doing anything.
And If I won’t do anything, these girlish thoughts are going to nestle themselves in my mind again.
If I won’t do anything, maybe I’ll be able to reach the new, brighter place.
I always see it in the darkest of my dreams.
That time when I was still myself.
But for today, it looks like my dreams will be dark once again after all.
Because I killed him.
What if he was not immortal?
If he was just a normal person, would I have still found myself so fascinated with him?
If not for his power, I wouldn’t even look at him. I probably wouldn’t even met him in the first place.
But it remains a fact that I did, and I decided to kill him. Thinking about it now, maybe I could have stopped it from happening, but unfortunately, it is too late for that now.
I have been trapped in this darkness for so long.
Even if he returned to life, I’m sure he must hate me now. Even though he said such kind words to me, he must be holding a grudge now. And if we meet again, I’m sure he won’t be looking at me with those kind, troubled eyes of his. He will surely see me as his enemy, and that’s something that I won’t be able stand if I’m all alone.
That is why, as soon as possible.
I want to not be alone as soon as possible.
I want to be whole as soon as possible.
Those are my honest thoughts.
That way, I’ll be able to return to that simple time when we shared our joys and pleasures.
That way, I’ll be able to return to those days when we shared hardships and bitter memories.
If I’m alone, I won’t be able to go on anymore.
If he’s angry at me, I’ll accept it. If he holds a grudge, I’ll accept with my whole being.
For me right now, that’s impossible.
That is why.
I have to do something about this as soon as possible.
I have to get rid of this filthy core as soon as possible.
Shiinamachi-sama will surely be tightly protected, and as I am now, I lack any power to do something about her and the Lord and the Knight that protect her. That’s why I have to find a way to keep those two away from her.
Shiki-sama, what would you have done if you were in my place? Ah, if it really turns out that you fell in love with him… then I don’t think I’ll have any chances of winning.
Right now big sis is stalling them, but I don’t think she can do it for long.
He will come to me soon. If that happens, I’ll have no other option but to use my last resort. If I won’t do that, then it’s going to be all over.
I knew that from the very beginning. It is what I’ve been told before. Could it be that everything’s been decided a long time ago?
I am the prisoner of darkness.
I’ll probably have to kill the first person that I’ve admired in a while.
I might end up being hated even more by that person.
Whether I’ll succeed or fail, I’m sure I won’t be alone anymore. And I won’t falter anymore.
「… So just wait for me a little longer, Onee-chan.」