Fiancée of the Wizard Volume 8 Chapter 5 Part 9
If these children really became officially recognized as the demon lord. Then, everyone would want to kill these children, or at best seal them.
In fact, I was the one that knew best that these children were not demon lords. Yet, it was not enough for me alone to know this. In such a scenario, I realized again, how powerless I was. The man will try to protect me no matter what he has to give in sacrifice. No matter how much pain or struggle he has to go through, he will try to prioritize me.
If this man really has to kill these babies, it was very easy to imagine what this man would do. The man would definitely say, I am the one who will kill the babies. Then, I would not forgive him. I would not be able to do so. Although I could not hate him or resent him, I would not be able to forgive him. Then, I definitely would struggle between these two emotions. My heart will be filled with the man’s presence only. It was a choice that was what I knew the extremely clumsy man would take; a choice that is very kind and at the same time utterly merciless.
For a while, the man did not reply to what I had said. Were my words so accurate that he was lost for words? While I was gazing at his face, the man suddenly took one big step towards me. Even though I tried to back away, his steps being much bigger than mine allowed him to come close to me. He stood in front of me and glared at me.
His morning glow colored eyes wielded a genuine fire of indignation burning in them. Although usually I would accept any kind of infuriation, now I was somehow very unbearably scared of his anger. I cast my face downwards.
「You are stupid, aren’t you? 」
His deep voice made my shoulders jolt. I could not lift my face, and softly muttered while looking down.
「Yes, I know」
「No, you don’t understand at all. You are really so stupid. Don’t underestimate me」
「……What? 」
Underestimate? I could not help but lift my face at these unexpected words. In front of me was not a face of anger. The man tilted his head as if confused, and continued.
「If our children are really demon lords, so what? 」
「What do you mean 『so what』……」
Of course, it would mean that things would not be that great. We would be put into a peril that could not be described by just 『not great』 alone. Yet, the man laughed off my worry.
「They are our children. No matter who is the enemy——even if I myself am the enemy, I won’t let them be killed」
The man’s hand reached out and traced the line of my cheek. I sensed that tears formed in my eyes upon feeling his hand’s warmth.
Ah, yes. It seems that I had misjudged this man. Albeit saying that I believed in him, surely the one that doubted him the most was me. How embarrassing. I wanted to apologize, but surely this man would not want that. Surely, he would pretend to forget, saying 「what are you referring to? 」. Or surely, he would simply let it slide, saying 「don’t worry」. Thus, instead of apologizing, I neared my face in his hand that was touching my cheeks and smiled while enduring the urge to cry.
「I want to let these children hear you say that when they grow up」
Were these children in my stomach listening? You father wanted you guys to be alive rather than avoid another catastrophe. I really wanted to tell them soon, what a precious miracle it was.
Ah, no no. I might cry again if I think of such things. I wiped the tears off my eyes with my fingers, pretending it to not be such a big deal. The man who was gazing at me said, 「yet」
「What happened? 」
「It is not much but 」
「Yes? 」
「It seems that you use the plural form. That is, when referring to the child」
「Because there are two, not just one baby in my stomach. Of course, I have to use the plural form」
Earlier in my subconscious, hadn’t the man also seen the two adorable lights? Yet, why was he pointing out something so obvious? I tilted my head at the question. The man muttered as if reminding himself.
「Twins, huh」
「That must be the case」
Upon saying so out loud again, it felt weird. But it was the genuine truth. The fact that I am pregnant is certain, but neither the capital’s Dr. Lindeburg nor the doctor affiliated to the Schtorenvihein family mentioned that they were twins. Of course, they could not have guessed at that point.
Yet, why did I know? Of course, that is because I saw them myself. I could only say so. Hadn’t the man also said in my subconscious 「these guys」? Then undoubtedly, my stomach holds two lives.
Don’t tell me he is going to say, I cannot father two children……no, he won’t. But perhaps a child to this man is so special that he is getting worried.
While I fell silent as I did not know what to say to him, the man’s morning glow colored eyes gazed at my stomach. After narrowing his eyes as if determining something, he nodded. 「I see」
「It would become quite lively, huh」
His thin lips made a small smile. I could not help but be captivated by his expressions. He seemed to not notice me, and continued calmly.
「I am excited」
It was a beautiful smile. It was calm, happy, and most importantly gentle. Unintentionally, I was captivated by his rare smile.
Although I had thought that I was familiar enough with the man’s beauty, I am always caught by surprise in this kind of scenario. Every time this happens, I became proud that I was the one that had the privilege to see such a face. I became happy and bashful.
I wanted to continue looking at his smile forever, but staring at him was quite embarrassing as well, so I looked away. Yet, the man’s hand had fixed my jaw in place, and I was prevented from looking away. I sensed my face reddening, and I tried to somehow go away from the man. Yet, the man wrapped his other hand around my waist and lowered his eyebrows as if troubled. It was rare for him to lower his eyebrows in a troubled manner.
「Why are you crying? 」
「What? 」
I blinked at his voice that seemed lost, much different from before. At the same time, I felt that a warm teardrop spill from my eyes.
「Oh no. No, sorry」
The tears that I had been enduring had wet my cheeks before I knew it. With the back of my hand, I wiped off the tears that I could not contain myself, but they did not seem to end.
The man’s hand that had been placed on my jaw moved and its fingers wiped off my tears. Yet, my tears did not stop.
「Don’t apologize……had I said something needless? 」
「No, no, not at all. I, just」
I, just
「I was happy about you saying that you are excited」
Surely, they were words that the man said out of the whim, and was nothing to me. Nonetheless, to me, I had surely wanted those words. 「I am excited」. I had always wanted those words.
When we were in the capital, when the man went drinking with the captain of the knights, at night, the man had said.
—Yet, I still am really excited for the day when the child is born. I really do think so.
I did not think that those words were a lie. I was really happy at that time. But this current situation was a little different from that time. Words that had no hidden meaning or any hesitation. Words that simply and purely meant that he was 「excited」. Just this simple line made me so uncontrollably happy. He was excited for the future spent with the children that were to be born. Was there any greater joy?
While I cried and lost my composure, the man sighed as if exasperated.
「Why are you crying now? Did you think that I was not excited about the children? 」
「I did not mean so but. Hehe, I am happy that you just put it in words」
「……Sorry for always not putting my thoughts in words」
「Oh, please don’t sulk. My adorable darling」
I giggled at how the man pouted. Then I reached out my hand, and patted his head. It seemed that he was not happy being treated like a child, but it also seemed that my patting was soothing to him. This was because he kept silent while making a difficult expression.
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